Darryl & Kenny (Part 2 – 360 Degree change)

The next morning, Darryl woke up really early to cook breakfast for Kenny… When Kenny was up, he was surprised by this thoughtful gesture by Darryl and glad that things maybe back on the right track again but he is not going to take any chance…he is kind of unsure of the whole situation change… Though he is happy of the change but there is worry that this is just an act by Darryl… Confusing but true... So he decided to talk to Darryl again on the situation…

Kenny: “Dear… Can I just ask you something?”
Darryl: “Go ahead…”
Kenny: “Have you think that it would be better for you to seek professional help on your situation?”
Darryl: “I am seeing the doctor…”
Kenny: “I mean professional psychiatric help…”
Darryl: “What make you suggest that?”
Kenny: “I just thinking that you need to start talking to someone about what you are really going through… And maybe, just maybe you may feel uncomfortable talking to me so this will be the best option for you… I just don’t want you to keep in inside and pretend that nothing is wrong… I want you to be happy again… As in really happy and not pretending you are happy… You get what I mean?”
Darryl: “I am ok already… I promise you I will seek help and talk to you more from now on and if I really need then I will go to them…”
Kenny: “But…”
Darryl: “Dear, you got to have faith in me…I promise I will go see them if I really need their help… but now I just want to work this through with you… Yet you have to give me some time… If you ask me to go to them now, I can tell you I may not be ready to talk to them… So just give me some time ok?”
Kenny: “Dear, I am not forcing you but just want you to see this as an option…”
Darryl: “I will keep that in mind and will let you know about it… Promise!”
Kenny: “You know I don’t need any promise from you just do what you think it right… But remember…”
Darryl: “Yes… I know… I will keep it as an option for me…” Darryl looked at Kenny and gives him a wink… Kenny just gives in…
Kenny: “So….”
Darryl: “So…. We should just take it easy and let plan for our trip which Robin has left us… We totally forget about it…”
Kenny: “Erm… You sure?” Kenny is even more confused now with the sudden bubbly self of Darryl... A vast contrast from last night…
Darryl: “Yes of course I am sure plus I been thinking it would be good for me to do something about it rather than sit around doing nothing… And I am sure Robin would want both of us to enjoy the trip… So let go to work and then we will come home and rework on our trip, ok?”
Kenny: “OK…”
Darryl: “Oh ya... Another thing is I am thinking maybe I should sell off my car…”
Kenny: “Why?”
Darryl: “Well, can save a little on the expense plus we don’t really need 2 cars for the 2 of us right… We just take turn to take the car”
Kenny: “True… But will it be inconvenient for you since you are in sales line and need to travel quite a fair bit…”
Darryl: “I’ve been thinking about it and I think with the installment of near $1K a month… I think I can sit comfortable on cab and still have quite a fair bit left for saving… Don’t you think? Plus your car is on a lower installment repayment so it would make more sense to sell mine and keep yours”
Kenny: “OK… Hang on there… there is too much for me to process now… Can we talk about it tonight?”
Darryl: “OK… Let go to work there…”

Kenny look at Darryl dumbfounded… Should he be happy that Darryl is back to normal or should he be worry that this is all just an act… He is confuse

“Oh ya… Dear, do you think it would a good idea to see whether Kelvin want to go for the trip as well?”

“Well… Let really sit down and talk about it tonight… ok? I see you tonight at home after work…”

They headed out to work together and during the whole day, Darryl constantly sms Kenny on his idea and thoughts which is making Kenny real worry because it like all of the sudden all the changes overnight… But he tried to calm himself and not to over think until he really sit down with Darryl tonight…

Finally end of work, Kenny was driving home when Darryl called to inform that he has made reservation at Fullerton and wanted Kenny to be there… Kenny was kind of reluctant to make a U turn but then knowing that Darryl was so enthusiastic about the dinner…

Soon he reached at Fullerton with Darryl with both hands behind his back
standing at the entrance waiting for him with a huge smile on his face when he see Kenny approaching… Kenny sensed something not too right… As he approached, Darryl took out a bouquet of flower from the back… Kenny was surprising touched by the gesture but embarrassed by it as well. It had been a while since he receives anything from Darryl…

Kenny: “What the….” Before Kenny can even finish his sentence…
Darryl: “I know… I know… But I just want to get something for you on a special night like this…”
Kenny: “What is the occasion?”
Darryl: “Erm… Nothing actually… Just our first date out since i… u know?”
Kenny: “I think I know but yet I am not sure…”
Darryl: “Well I think you know…”
Kenny: “I really don’t know…”
Darryl: “Anyway I will tell you later when we having dinner… So shall we, Mrs Tay?” Darryl lifted up his hand for Kenny but Kenny slaps it off…
Kenny: “No… It been embarrassed enough to hold on to this bouquet during the dinner so don’t think to make a grand entrance for the whole world to see we are gay…”
Darryl: “Why? I am out and proud… I can so kiss u here right now…” and steal a kiss from Kenny…
Kenny: “Behave… Am hungry so can we go eat now…”
Darryl: “OMG… You are blushing…”
Kenny: “No, I am not… I’m just hot…”
Darryl: “I so wanted to believe you but then you don’t sound convincing… Hahaha”
Kenny: “Let’s go…”

Darryl was smiling all the way to the restaurant with Kenny with the bouquet on his hand… It seems the longest walk for him though it just a mere 5 min walk but with people staring… he just feel so embarrassed but inside him, it sweetness overflow…

To be continue…

Darryl & Kenny (Part 1 - New Beginning)

It been more than 3 months since Robin passed away, things has never been the same for Darryl and Kenny. They started to drift apart and not as close as they use to be though they still stay together. And the problem undeniable arises when Darryl was diagnosed with depression. Darryl started communicating less to Kenny and hide in the room everyday after he went home. No matter how Kenny tried, Darryl just doesn’t really want to talk. Kenny is totally at a lost on the situation but yet he has no one to turn to except some of their friends. Kenny too hopes that if Robin is still around maybe thing won’t turn out to be this way. But unfortunately, he is no longer here and Kenny has to do whatever he can to handle this alone.

Kenny has been tolerant towards Darryl behavior and he knew that though Darryl is not really saying much. He needed to be by his side to give him the support and help him pull through this together and hoping that things will be soon but Kenny is tired too… There seems to a gap between them… No matter, how Kenny tried to close, Darryl seems to widen it even more… Kenny no longer can take it any longer as he is tired and exhausted…

Kenny: “Dear, can I talk to you?”
Darryl: “Hmmm….”
Kenny: “I really need to talk to you…please”
Darryl: “Yup, what is it?”
Kenny: “I don’t know whether you have realized anything wrong between us lately but I have… I am not sure what is going on in your mind and I am not sure how can I make you feel better but we seems to be drifting apart. And it adding stress on me and I am tired… I really want to know how I can make thing better for both of us… I don’t want to lose you but you have been behaving like I am no longer needed in your life… I am lost…”
Darryl: “…”
Kenny: “I know you are saddened by Robin and you are greatly affected by it both physically and emotionally but I am too… yet I have to be here fto support you but with you not telling or talking to me, I am really helpless and lost with you now… Everyday I come back to you hoping that you will talk to me more and more everyday but day after day after day… You just gone more and more silent… I really love you and I really want you to know I am here for you but no matter how much I do or how hard i try to do, you are still ignoring or even treated me like we are total stranger… I have long forgotten how your hug feels to me, I have long forgotten how your smile brightens my days… And everything else about you... I just don't think i can take this anymore but i am still here... I am still here.... Did you see it... Did you realise it...” Kenny broke down and cried…

Darryl looked at Kenny… He felt the pain Kenny goes through but he is lost of words… He wanted to console him but nothing comes out from his mouth… He walked toward Kenny and gives Kenny a tight hug… Kenny looked at Darryl… Darryl leaned forward and planted a kiss on Kenny lips… Kenny reciprocated… And the passion between just rekindle and desire run wild… It had been so long since they last get intimate… Kenny was glad that the passion between them still exists…

Darryl holds on to Kenny tightly and looks at him... Kenny was sleeping…

“Sorry, I didn’t know I am so much trouble to you for the past few months. I am also trying very hard to get out of this situation that I am in… I been trying too and I really have but the more I see you doing so many things for me… I just feel more inferior about myself not able to give you what you want from me… I cannot deny I ever have thought of letting you go to be with someone more deserving but I just can’t bring myself to do it but thoughts also me make me shiver… I want to be with you but I just don’t think I can give you what is required to you… I am as lost as you are… In fact, I am confused… I just want…”

“Shhhhh…. Don’t say anymore”

Darryl: “You are not asleep…”
Kenny: “I was but was awaken by your touching speech…” Kenny turn around and look at Darryl
Darryl: “I’m sorry for pushing you away… I really don’t mean too but I feel very inferior…”
Kenny: “Why are you thinking such things? Is it because of me and the things I have done…”
Darryl: “Its you being there for me all these while and I have done nothing at all beside running and pushing you away… I don’t know what have gotten into me… I wanted to open up to you but I….”
Kenny: “Shhhh… Dear, you know I love you and I am here for you no matter what… I have to admit at times I am tired with the whole situation and really got opportunity for me to lead me to leave you but I persists until today… Just now I so wanted to tell you that let give take a break but I just cannot bring myself to say so because I don’t want to give up on you… I don’t want to… The past 3 months has been unbearable for me coming home to this place with you so near to be yet feeling so far from me… I cannot deny i am having thought of leaving you because i assume you will be better off without me here giving you stress and pressure...”
Darryl: “I’m sorry…”
Kenny: “Don’t apologize… I am not blaming you… Just don’t shut me off again… Don't give up on me and don't give up on yourself... Let get through this rough patch together, let face it together...”
Darryl: “I am so sorry… I really am… I love you, Kenny… I love you, Kenny…”
Kenny: “I love you too… You know this is actually the first time in 3 months that i feel your hugs and hear you say this to me... Though it a long wait but at least i know you have not given up on me...”
Darryl: “I promise you to my last breath… I will never make you cry or sad again… I promise…”
Kenny: “I know you won’t…”

Darryl then planted another kiss on Kenny and Kenny can feel how that Darryl warmth tears flowing down his own cheeks…

Hi there...

Hello everyone!!! Sorry for not posting for such a long time and keeping you guys suspense on the story...

I am going through quite a rough patch of my life for the past month and guess i am now feeling better and am ready to do my update on the story again...

However, this will be a new beginning for me and hopefully for you guys as well... The previous story on Love Is had actually ended with Robin death and a new story will be posted soon on this blog as a continuation from the previous and the focus will be unfold as the story goes by...

Some of you have wonder am i part of the story... Well i can just say that i am one of the characters in the story thus the details... And some actually who i am actually in the story... Hmmm this will be unfold in the new part os the story real soon...

I look forward for all your support in my story and give me feedback and comments on how i can write it better... I do understand sometime my grammer suck big time but hey i just trying to write what come to mind without really going thru the grammer and spelling check... So pls pardon me...

So stay tune for the new story coming up soon...

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