It been more than 3 months since Robin passed away, things has never been the same for Darryl and Kenny. They started to drift apart and not as close as they use to be though they still stay together. And the problem undeniable arises when Darryl was diagnosed with depression. Darryl started communicating less to Kenny and hide in the room everyday after he went home. No matter how Kenny tried, Darryl just doesn’t really want to talk. Kenny is totally at a lost on the situation but yet he has no one to turn to except some of their friends. Kenny too hopes that if Robin is still around maybe thing won’t turn out to be this way. But unfortunately, he is no longer here and Kenny has to do whatever he can to handle this alone.
Kenny has been tolerant towards Darryl behavior and he knew that though Darryl is not really saying much. He needed to be by his side to give him the support and help him pull through this together and hoping that things will be soon but Kenny is tired too… There seems to a gap between them… No matter, how Kenny tried to close, Darryl seems to widen it even more… Kenny no longer can take it any longer as he is tired and exhausted…
Kenny: “Dear, can I talk to you?”
Darryl: “Hmmm….”
Kenny: “I really need to talk to you…please”
Darryl: “Yup, what is it?”
Kenny: “I don’t know whether you have realized anything wrong between us lately but I have… I am not sure what is going on in your mind and I am not sure how can I make you feel better but we seems to be drifting apart. And it adding stress on me and I am tired… I really want to know how I can make thing better for both of us… I don’t want to lose you but you have been behaving like I am no longer needed in your life… I am lost…”
Darryl: “…”
Kenny: “I know you are saddened by Robin and you are greatly affected by it both physically and emotionally but I am too… yet I have to be here fto support you but with you not telling or talking to me, I am really helpless and lost with you now… Everyday I come back to you hoping that you will talk to me more and more everyday but day after day after day… You just gone more and more silent… I really love you and I really want you to know I am here for you but no matter how much I do or how hard i try to do, you are still ignoring or even treated me like we are total stranger… I have long forgotten how your hug feels to me, I have long forgotten how your smile brightens my days… And everything else about you... I just don't think i can take this anymore but i am still here... I am still here.... Did you see it... Did you realise it...” Kenny broke down and cried…
Darryl looked at Kenny… He felt the pain Kenny goes through but he is lost of words… He wanted to console him but nothing comes out from his mouth… He walked toward Kenny and gives Kenny a tight hug… Kenny looked at Darryl… Darryl leaned forward and planted a kiss on Kenny lips… Kenny reciprocated… And the passion between just rekindle and desire run wild… It had been so long since they last get intimate… Kenny was glad that the passion between them still exists…
Darryl holds on to Kenny tightly and looks at him... Kenny was sleeping…
“Sorry, I didn’t know I am so much trouble to you for the past few months. I am also trying very hard to get out of this situation that I am in… I been trying too and I really have but the more I see you doing so many things for me… I just feel more inferior about myself not able to give you what you want from me… I cannot deny I ever have thought of letting you go to be with someone more deserving but I just can’t bring myself to do it but thoughts also me make me shiver… I want to be with you but I just don’t think I can give you what is required to you… I am as lost as you are… In fact, I am confused… I just want…”
“Shhhhh…. Don’t say anymore”
Darryl: “You are not asleep…”
Kenny: “I was but was awaken by your touching speech…” Kenny turn around and look at Darryl
Darryl: “I’m sorry for pushing you away… I really don’t mean too but I feel very inferior…”
Kenny: “Why are you thinking such things? Is it because of me and the things I have done…”
Darryl: “Its you being there for me all these while and I have done nothing at all beside running and pushing you away… I don’t know what have gotten into me… I wanted to open up to you but I….”
Kenny: “Shhhh… Dear, you know I love you and I am here for you no matter what… I have to admit at times I am tired with the whole situation and really got opportunity for me to lead me to leave you but I persists until today… Just now I so wanted to tell you that let give take a break but I just cannot bring myself to say so because I don’t want to give up on you… I don’t want to… The past 3 months has been unbearable for me coming home to this place with you so near to be yet feeling so far from me… I cannot deny i am having thought of leaving you because i assume you will be better off without me here giving you stress and pressure...”
Darryl: “I’m sorry…”
Kenny: “Don’t apologize… I am not blaming you… Just don’t shut me off again… Don't give up on me and don't give up on yourself... Let get through this rough patch together, let face it together...”
Darryl: “I am so sorry… I really am… I love you, Kenny… I love you, Kenny…”
Kenny: “I love you too… You know this is actually the first time in 3 months that i feel your hugs and hear you say this to me... Though it a long wait but at least i know you have not given up on me...”
Darryl: “I promise you to my last breath… I will never make you cry or sad again… I promise…”
Kenny: “I know you won’t…”
Darryl then planted another kiss on Kenny and Kenny can feel how that Darryl warmth tears flowing down his own cheeks…
Kenny has been tolerant towards Darryl behavior and he knew that though Darryl is not really saying much. He needed to be by his side to give him the support and help him pull through this together and hoping that things will be soon but Kenny is tired too… There seems to a gap between them… No matter, how Kenny tried to close, Darryl seems to widen it even more… Kenny no longer can take it any longer as he is tired and exhausted…
Kenny: “Dear, can I talk to you?”
Darryl: “Hmmm….”
Kenny: “I really need to talk to you…please”
Darryl: “Yup, what is it?”
Kenny: “I don’t know whether you have realized anything wrong between us lately but I have… I am not sure what is going on in your mind and I am not sure how can I make you feel better but we seems to be drifting apart. And it adding stress on me and I am tired… I really want to know how I can make thing better for both of us… I don’t want to lose you but you have been behaving like I am no longer needed in your life… I am lost…”
Darryl: “…”
Kenny: “I know you are saddened by Robin and you are greatly affected by it both physically and emotionally but I am too… yet I have to be here fto support you but with you not telling or talking to me, I am really helpless and lost with you now… Everyday I come back to you hoping that you will talk to me more and more everyday but day after day after day… You just gone more and more silent… I really love you and I really want you to know I am here for you but no matter how much I do or how hard i try to do, you are still ignoring or even treated me like we are total stranger… I have long forgotten how your hug feels to me, I have long forgotten how your smile brightens my days… And everything else about you... I just don't think i can take this anymore but i am still here... I am still here.... Did you see it... Did you realise it...” Kenny broke down and cried…
Darryl looked at Kenny… He felt the pain Kenny goes through but he is lost of words… He wanted to console him but nothing comes out from his mouth… He walked toward Kenny and gives Kenny a tight hug… Kenny looked at Darryl… Darryl leaned forward and planted a kiss on Kenny lips… Kenny reciprocated… And the passion between just rekindle and desire run wild… It had been so long since they last get intimate… Kenny was glad that the passion between them still exists…
Darryl holds on to Kenny tightly and looks at him... Kenny was sleeping…
“Sorry, I didn’t know I am so much trouble to you for the past few months. I am also trying very hard to get out of this situation that I am in… I been trying too and I really have but the more I see you doing so many things for me… I just feel more inferior about myself not able to give you what you want from me… I cannot deny I ever have thought of letting you go to be with someone more deserving but I just can’t bring myself to do it but thoughts also me make me shiver… I want to be with you but I just don’t think I can give you what is required to you… I am as lost as you are… In fact, I am confused… I just want…”
“Shhhhh…. Don’t say anymore”
Darryl: “You are not asleep…”
Kenny: “I was but was awaken by your touching speech…” Kenny turn around and look at Darryl
Darryl: “I’m sorry for pushing you away… I really don’t mean too but I feel very inferior…”
Kenny: “Why are you thinking such things? Is it because of me and the things I have done…”
Darryl: “Its you being there for me all these while and I have done nothing at all beside running and pushing you away… I don’t know what have gotten into me… I wanted to open up to you but I….”
Kenny: “Shhhh… Dear, you know I love you and I am here for you no matter what… I have to admit at times I am tired with the whole situation and really got opportunity for me to lead me to leave you but I persists until today… Just now I so wanted to tell you that let give take a break but I just cannot bring myself to say so because I don’t want to give up on you… I don’t want to… The past 3 months has been unbearable for me coming home to this place with you so near to be yet feeling so far from me… I cannot deny i am having thought of leaving you because i assume you will be better off without me here giving you stress and pressure...”
Darryl: “I’m sorry…”
Kenny: “Don’t apologize… I am not blaming you… Just don’t shut me off again… Don't give up on me and don't give up on yourself... Let get through this rough patch together, let face it together...”
Darryl: “I am so sorry… I really am… I love you, Kenny… I love you, Kenny…”
Kenny: “I love you too… You know this is actually the first time in 3 months that i feel your hugs and hear you say this to me... Though it a long wait but at least i know you have not given up on me...”
Darryl: “I promise you to my last breath… I will never make you cry or sad again… I promise…”
Kenny: “I know you won’t…”
Darryl then planted another kiss on Kenny and Kenny can feel how that Darryl warmth tears flowing down his own cheeks…
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