After the wake and funeral, Kenny took a very long time to talk to Robin but he just refused to come back to Singapore with them. No matter what was spoken to him. But Robin is very stubborn in this area. He wants to be there with Tommy and stay there with him. So without much they can do, Kenny and Darryl flew back to Singapore leaving their number with the driver to call them if anything arises…
During their flight back, Darryl and Kenny realized that both of them were still very worried about Robin…
Darryl: “Dear… I am really worried…”
Kenny: “About Robin?”
Darryl: “Yup… I was taken aback by his calmness over the past few days.”
Kenny: ‘Me too… When I was talking to him, he seems so relax but yet… I don’t know how to describe the vibe that he is sending me but it does scare me out a bit…”
Darryl: “What do you mean?”
Kenny: “I don’t know how to put it but during a moment of the conversation with him, he actually seems to be like he is going to….”
Darryl: “Going to what?”
Kenny: “Going to end his life…but…”
Darryl: “What!!! And you tell me only now!!! How can you keep such thing from me? We should not be on the flight back.. How can you just ignore the signal from him and worst not telling me until we are how many thousand feet above ground… How can…”
Kenny: “Wait… I have not finished… He assured me that he is not going to do it… Cos he promised Tommy at his death bed that he will live on…”
Darryl: “So?” Giving Kenny the angry look for keeping information from me
Kenny: “Seriously do you know Robin well?”
Darryl: “Of course… I had been friend with him for so long…”
Kenny: “Then you tell me what you know about him then…”
Darryl: “Why are you changing topic? I am asking why didn’t you tell me about Robin?”
Kenny: “Because from what I know about him, he is someone who keep to his promise… From the past few days I was with him during the funeral… He didn’t drop a single tears because of his promise to Tommy. When he make a vow to be with him till death do them apart, he really keep to his promise even it means that he had to sleep on the street with him to make Tommy sees his determination… So I know and I trust him that he will not do it because he promises Tommy…”
Darryl: “But still you should not hide this from me…”
Kenny: “I decided not to tell you because I know that how you will react and it may add stress to him.
Darryl: “Yet…”
Kenny: “I’m sorry… But I just feel that this is better for him... Don’t be angry…”
Darryl: “You know how I hate people lying to me… What make thing worst is I keep asking you and you keep saying everything under control... Then all sudden you drop a bomb on me… So anything else i didn’t know about?”
Kenny: “Erm….. Actually…. Yes…”
Darryl: “What is it?”
Kenny: “He asked me to give you this only when we are back in Singapore…” Kenny took out a letter from his bag…
Darryl: “What is this?”
Kenny: “A note from him… You decided whether you want to open it now or back to Singapore ba…” Darryl opens the envelope and started reading.
“Darryl,
I know it going to be tough for you now to understand why I am writing to you instead of talking to you personally… I am confused too myself but somehow I think writing to you will be easier than talking…
Since Tommy passed away, I am no longer sure the purpose of living anymore. Without him, my life just collapsed but I am trying hard to fight against the thought of ending my life because I promised Tommy that I will live on… Sometime I find myself silly in promising him because I know my life will be so unbearable without his laughter, his presence and his touch… I miss him so much… Nothing means more than anything now to just hear his voice again, to feel his touch and to hear him say he loves me… But all these will remains as just a memory to me… Something that I will treasure for the remaining period of my life…
I know Tommy requested you to bring me back to Singapore as he couldn’t bear to see me alone here in Thailand living in seclusion but I really lost and scare now and I do not want to be a burden to you or Kenny though I know both of you will stay behind to take care of me… I know you mean well but I don’t think it is right for me… I have been staying in Thailand for the past 7 years so you can say that Thailand is now my home… I don’t want to be back in Singapore to start all over again… Maybe I am just not ready to leave this place where I have called home for the past years… If my health allowed, I will sure drop by Singapore again and you two can come by to visit me as well…
I have to say a big thank you to both of you for being here for me and accompany Tommy till the end… I have never seen him so happy since we shifted to this place and never seen him so cheerful until both of you come along…Your presence really make a difference. I am happy that at least the last few days, he is happy….
When I was in the ward with him seeing him getting weaker every second, yet he still told me that he is glad to see both you and Kenny again as he heard so much about both of you from me with regards to the ups and downs. He say that he really hope that we can be like you guys, He wishes that he can spend more time with me even if it is just another year, month or even day… He still got so much to accomplish in his life with me but then he has to leave me here. He apologizes continuously to me for causing me this but I don’t blame him… You know why because both you and Kenny have shown me what love is all about… The support you give us, the love you have for us, and everything that happen and you guys being there really make a difference… Thank you for everything you guys have done for us… We really appreciate it…
Lastly, i just want to say this to you… Treasure what you have now and don’t give up unless you cannot handle the stress… It never easy to find someone who love you so much… Seriously from how Kenny have shown and talked to me this few days, I know he really love you and care for you… Even Tommy said it so hard to find true love… You may still have doubt in the incident but then again, you have already given him a second chance so just enjoy it and see what happen… You shape your own future…
Like me, I thought I will be with Tommy forever but then now we are apart and I am left alone here in this world on my world… But for all I know, he has given me the best 7 years of my life… Nothing can overtake it… Nothing can…
I miss him so much…. I really do…
You take care….
Love,
Robin”
Darryl put down the letter and looks up to Kenny and planted a kiss on his lip… Totally not bothering about anybody around them… They paused and looked at each other…
“I love you…”
“I love you too…”
During their flight back, Darryl and Kenny realized that both of them were still very worried about Robin…
Darryl: “Dear… I am really worried…”
Kenny: “About Robin?”
Darryl: “Yup… I was taken aback by his calmness over the past few days.”
Kenny: ‘Me too… When I was talking to him, he seems so relax but yet… I don’t know how to describe the vibe that he is sending me but it does scare me out a bit…”
Darryl: “What do you mean?”
Kenny: “I don’t know how to put it but during a moment of the conversation with him, he actually seems to be like he is going to….”
Darryl: “Going to what?”
Kenny: “Going to end his life…but…”
Darryl: “What!!! And you tell me only now!!! How can you keep such thing from me? We should not be on the flight back.. How can you just ignore the signal from him and worst not telling me until we are how many thousand feet above ground… How can…”
Kenny: “Wait… I have not finished… He assured me that he is not going to do it… Cos he promised Tommy at his death bed that he will live on…”
Darryl: “So?” Giving Kenny the angry look for keeping information from me
Kenny: “Seriously do you know Robin well?”
Darryl: “Of course… I had been friend with him for so long…”
Kenny: “Then you tell me what you know about him then…”
Darryl: “Why are you changing topic? I am asking why didn’t you tell me about Robin?”
Kenny: “Because from what I know about him, he is someone who keep to his promise… From the past few days I was with him during the funeral… He didn’t drop a single tears because of his promise to Tommy. When he make a vow to be with him till death do them apart, he really keep to his promise even it means that he had to sleep on the street with him to make Tommy sees his determination… So I know and I trust him that he will not do it because he promises Tommy…”
Darryl: “But still you should not hide this from me…”
Kenny: “I decided not to tell you because I know that how you will react and it may add stress to him.
Darryl: “Yet…”
Kenny: “I’m sorry… But I just feel that this is better for him... Don’t be angry…”
Darryl: “You know how I hate people lying to me… What make thing worst is I keep asking you and you keep saying everything under control... Then all sudden you drop a bomb on me… So anything else i didn’t know about?”
Kenny: “Erm….. Actually…. Yes…”
Darryl: “What is it?”
Kenny: “He asked me to give you this only when we are back in Singapore…” Kenny took out a letter from his bag…
Darryl: “What is this?”
Kenny: “A note from him… You decided whether you want to open it now or back to Singapore ba…” Darryl opens the envelope and started reading.
“Darryl,
I know it going to be tough for you now to understand why I am writing to you instead of talking to you personally… I am confused too myself but somehow I think writing to you will be easier than talking…
Since Tommy passed away, I am no longer sure the purpose of living anymore. Without him, my life just collapsed but I am trying hard to fight against the thought of ending my life because I promised Tommy that I will live on… Sometime I find myself silly in promising him because I know my life will be so unbearable without his laughter, his presence and his touch… I miss him so much… Nothing means more than anything now to just hear his voice again, to feel his touch and to hear him say he loves me… But all these will remains as just a memory to me… Something that I will treasure for the remaining period of my life…
I know Tommy requested you to bring me back to Singapore as he couldn’t bear to see me alone here in Thailand living in seclusion but I really lost and scare now and I do not want to be a burden to you or Kenny though I know both of you will stay behind to take care of me… I know you mean well but I don’t think it is right for me… I have been staying in Thailand for the past 7 years so you can say that Thailand is now my home… I don’t want to be back in Singapore to start all over again… Maybe I am just not ready to leave this place where I have called home for the past years… If my health allowed, I will sure drop by Singapore again and you two can come by to visit me as well…
I have to say a big thank you to both of you for being here for me and accompany Tommy till the end… I have never seen him so happy since we shifted to this place and never seen him so cheerful until both of you come along…Your presence really make a difference. I am happy that at least the last few days, he is happy….
When I was in the ward with him seeing him getting weaker every second, yet he still told me that he is glad to see both you and Kenny again as he heard so much about both of you from me with regards to the ups and downs. He say that he really hope that we can be like you guys, He wishes that he can spend more time with me even if it is just another year, month or even day… He still got so much to accomplish in his life with me but then he has to leave me here. He apologizes continuously to me for causing me this but I don’t blame him… You know why because both you and Kenny have shown me what love is all about… The support you give us, the love you have for us, and everything that happen and you guys being there really make a difference… Thank you for everything you guys have done for us… We really appreciate it…
Lastly, i just want to say this to you… Treasure what you have now and don’t give up unless you cannot handle the stress… It never easy to find someone who love you so much… Seriously from how Kenny have shown and talked to me this few days, I know he really love you and care for you… Even Tommy said it so hard to find true love… You may still have doubt in the incident but then again, you have already given him a second chance so just enjoy it and see what happen… You shape your own future…
Like me, I thought I will be with Tommy forever but then now we are apart and I am left alone here in this world on my world… But for all I know, he has given me the best 7 years of my life… Nothing can overtake it… Nothing can…
I miss him so much…. I really do…
You take care….
Love,
Robin”
Darryl put down the letter and looks up to Kenny and planted a kiss on his lip… Totally not bothering about anybody around them… They paused and looked at each other…
“I love you…”
“I love you too…”
To be continue...
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