Love Is... (Part 96 - Robin 6)

The next few days went as plan and they have a wonderful time with Robin trying to rediscover Singapore… Singapore has never been that fun and exciting… Everywhere they go even to the Zoo is filled with laughter and excitement… They really spend good time together exploring different parts of Singapore…

They were sitting at one of the café along East Coast Park taking a break from rollerblading…

Robin: “Wow, can you believe the number of places we visited this few days… I never expect myself to be so in awe with them and falling in love with them again…”
Darryl: “Me too… I never expected I will have so much fun… I will never see Singapore the same way again…”
Kenny: “Hahaha… The 2 of you are like kids throughout… Wow here Wow there... So funny and candid… I am glad I got quite a fair bit of candid shot from both of you…”
Robin: “Because it so much fun… When we were at the Botanical Garden and Mount Faber, it just takes my breath away on the natural scenery… And the zoo, it been so long since I lasted visited… The science centre and other places… It just fun…”
Darryl: “Yes Yes… I like the science centre… They have upgraded so much and everything is like so interactive… It so fun…”
Kenny: “Hahaha…”
Robin: “What are you laughing?”
Kenny: “The reactions of both of you… Hahaha… Like primary school kids going for their first excursion…”
Darryl: “Ya la ya la… You are mature and we are like children…”
Kenny: “Oh no no… I am not… I am just a normal person… hahaha… We should this more often…”
Robin: “Oh no… this is just be done once a while so we can relive our childhood… It will spoil the fun if too frequent…”
Darryl: “Same thought… I mean see how much fun we have after like more than 10years since we last visited???”
Robin: “For me, it’s longer…. Much longer… Hahaha”
Kenny: “Not going to debate one that with you… Anywhere what time is your flight tomorrow?”
Robin: “Oh I’m leaving very early in the morning… Think my flight is 6am…”
Darryl: “That’s early… I go and pick you up at say 4am…”
Robin: “No need… I have gotten the hotel to arrange a transfer for me to the airport… I am thinking it might a bit too early to trouble anyone…”
Darryl: “Really?”
Robin: “Yes… I have gotten them to pick me up at 430am to the airport…”
Kenny: “Why such early flight?”
Robin: “Cheaper… plus by the time I reach Bangkok, it will be just nice...”
Kenny: “Ya… Just nice to hit the traffic jam…”
Robin: “Hahaha… It not that bad… Plus I’m used to the jam so nothing fazed me anymore…”
Darryl: “Hahaha… That’s true… I remember the first time I went there I was stuck in the jam for more than 2 hours and I was really high tide so bad that the driver actually give me an empty bottle to relief myself there and then… hahaha… it was so embarrassing to unzip and just peed into the bottle… I was like trying to pee and was really cautious not to spill onto his car… So embarrassing”
Kenny: “OMG!!! You actually take out your dick and peed there…”
Darryl: “Yes I did… I just cannot hold it anymore…”
Kenny: “Wow… Someone give the drive free show wor…”
Darryl: “Hahaha… if u have it, flaunt it… Hahaha… Nonsense! I was at the back seat right behind him so he didn’t see anything I guess… Hahaha and that was like years ago… Now it only meant for you…”
Robin: “Erm… Stop there… Too much detail… I don’t need to know…. Can we go for dinner?”
Darryl: “Dinner? Now? At 4pm?”
Robin: “Hahaha…. I was just trying to change topic…”
Kenny: “Well, shall we go for buffet today?”
Darryl: “Not a bad idea… Can take our time to eat and chat…”
Robin: “It’s so funny that we have been having so much to talk about for the last few days… And we had been seeing each other every day…It like I just to know both of you and also Singapore only on this trip…”
Darryl: “Ya… It so funny right?”
Robin: “I hope Tommy is here with us… He will be so happy as well…”

A sudden moment of silence just filled up the air after this sentence has been spoken… Darryl look at Kenny for a response… But Kenny just stared blankly… Nobody said anything for a while until Robin break the silence…

Robin: “So buffet dinner?”
Kenny: “Yup… But where…”
Darryl: “Any hotel should have so it should not be much a problem… We just need to think of what type buffet? Japanese, Local, International…”
Robin: “International…”
Darryl: “Then let head back to freshen up before heading to dinner?”
Kenny: “Totally agree…”

So they made their way back to Darryl’s place. While Robin is in the shower, Darryl and Kenny surf the net to find international buffet dinner… And by the time, they were walking up and down the room trying to have Robin decide on where to eat… Until they eventually give up and just sit down at the living room and wait for him…

Robin: “You guys are so funny… Why can’t you guys just wait for me to come out from shower before deciding? I can’t even enjoy a nice and relaxing shower…”
Darryl: “Hahaha… Feel free to shower again… NO extra charge…”
Robin: “Ya ya… You guys really a funny couple… So where to have food…”
Kenny: “I leave to you guys… I go shower…”

So Darryl and Robin sat and discuss when Robin suddenly mentioned something that broke Darryl heart…

Robin: “If ever a day, I won’t be around anymore… Promise me, you will remember me this happy way…”
Darryl: “What are you talking about?”
Robin: “Nothing I just want you to remember the happy me…”
Darryl: “Please… Don’t say such things… You are who you are and I will remember every detail of you…”
Robin: “That’s good… I don’t know how long more I will live but I hope you will not forget me…”
Darryl: “Please stop all these nonsense… Please… I don’t want to hear anymore…”
Robin: “But you soon have to face it…”
Darryl: “NO… what do you mean I soon have to face it??? What do you mean???”
Robin: “Nothing… Nothing…”

Darryl: “Tell me what is it… What is it in your mind?”
Robin: “Nothing… I am just scared as much as you do…”
Darryl: “Promise me… Promise me you will not do anything silly… Please promise me… Please…”
Robin: “I…”
Darryl: “Please don’t do anything silly… Please…”
Robin: “I promise… But I am scared…”
Darryl: “You have me… Stay here with me… You can have the extra room… You need not go back to BKK… You know that… Stay here and we face the fear together… You, me and Kenny… You no need to do this alone… And you know that we are here for you… So you no need to face it alone…”
Robin: “I know… We talk about this later… Kenny is coming out…”
Darryl: “Promise me you will not do anything silly…”
Robin: “OK OK… So… let fixed this place for dinner then…”

And the conversation was never completed…

To be continue…

Love Is... (Part 95 - Robin 5)

The dinner was actually quite light-hearted… They started to chat about all the fond memory of Tommy and on one occasion how he actually make a fool of himself when trying to pursue Robin by sending a bouquet to Robin colleague instead… These were the fond memory that Robin have and always will be part of him… It nice for both Darryl and Kenny to witness the strong bond between the two of them though they are now worlds apart…

After dinner, they send Robin back to the hotel to rest and excitingly planned for the itinerary for the next few days which include visit to the zoo, picnic at Botanical Gardens…

Both of them were on their way home discussing on the picnic menu when Kenny said something that disturb Darryl…

Kenny: “Dear…”
Darryl: “Yes…”
Kenny: “If I were to die tomorrow, will you miss me and remember me?”
Darryl: ‘Nonsense…”
Kenny: “Answer me…”
Darryl: “I am not going to answer because you will not leaving me ever…”
Kenny: “I say If…”
Darryl: “No IF!! And don’t you say anything of such again… I will never allow this to happen… Never… Understand!!! Never!!!”
Kenny: “OK OK... Don’t get so fierce…”
Darryl: “I’m sorry but I just cannot imagine how my life will be without you and I never will dare to imagine…”
Kenny: “I know… I’m sorry too to ask such a question… I guess I am just envy Tommy…”
Darryl: “Frankly speaking, I am too… It like I am living in their story, every single detail was remembered like it just happen yesterday… If only I have my own story to tell…”
Kenny: “You have… You have our story to tell… From how we met to we finally attached to living together to our anniversary and many many more to come…”
Darryl: “I don’t want to have any story to tell… I want you to be with me forever… And never leave me… “
Kenny: “I won’t… I promise I will never leave you…”
Darryl: “I won’t leave you either…”
Kenny: “But something I still confused…”
Darryl: “What is it?”
Kenny: “About why Robin didn’t tell you anything about Tommy...”
Darryl: “I’m not sure as well… Though I do know that he is attached during that time, I didn’t really probe further as I myself is unsure about myself… At that time, I know he was under lots of stress and didn’t really talk much… I did know he tried coming out but was very miserable… In fact, I scolded him for doing so without really thinking of the consequence…”
Kenny: “Why did you scold him for? He is doing the right thing…”
Darryl: “Dear, we have gone through this ourselves, remember? It’s not that easy for a traditional family to accept the news like that… And when I said traditional, I really mean it… Robin’s parents are the most rigid I have ever come across in my life… Their idea of relationship is heterosexual… Anything that is not in this category is not considered as relationship and they are expecting Robin to get married and have grandchildren… And definitely didn’t help Robin that even his relatives despise him… None of them accept him… That why I scolded for acting on impulse… He should think it through first…”
Kenny: “No wonder he didn’t tell you… Guess he must be thinking you are not supporting him as well… Sometime, everything will be change if one of you… Just one of you supports him…”
Darryl: “I do support him but just that i think he didn’t really think of the impact…”
Kenny: “Seriously, at that point of time he need your support more than anything else but instead you scolded him and in the process may make him think that you are not supporting his decision like everyone else…”
Darryl: “I…”
Kenny: “You know, dear… In our world to find true love is like finding a needle in the in the ocean… It may take years or it may not even happen… So when Robin really find Tommy, I am sure it a decision both of them made to come out as a couple… It not for you and me to scold or judge on them... We should support him and give him our best wishes…”
Darryl: “But…”
Kenny: “I have no finish… Just take us as a example, I am so ready to tell the world I am with you, my true love… But on the other hand, you are not and so we compromise to come out selectively… It’s a decision we make and it’s something we live by till the right time come… Or maybe it will not come at all… You know I used to have stupid thinking that the reason why you decided not to come out with me is because you are ashamed of me…”
Darryl: “Nothing of that sort!!! I never was ashamed of you…”
Kenny: “I know… It just a initial thought that I have but after time and time again, you introduce me as your partner, I realized that this is just how you work… Slowly and observed… At least to some people out there, I am your partner though to majority, I am a close friend but I am satisfied… So listening to Robin’s story today, I can’t help but to feel for him… So many times, he gave up due to pressure… But I guess both of them just meant to be together... That why they just become stronger and stronger after each breakup…”
Darryl: “I am sorry to make you think that way…”
Kenny: “Silly, not your fault… Maybe I like Robin just feeling insecure about myself... I mean look at you…”
Darryl: “What about me?”
Kenny: “So cute and handsome…”
Darryl: “Faintz… Where got?”
Kenny: “Well at least in my eyes, you are…”
Darryl: “You are too to me… The true love I can ever ask for…”
Kenny: “I know… Where else can you find such superior quality one…”
Darryl: “Erm…”
Kenny: “Anyway, I am really hoping that Robin will feel much better after today…”
Darryl: “I hope so too… But can see that he looked relaxed after visiting all the places and we do have fun too during dinner”
Kenny: “Ya… I never seem him so talkative before… He is always like stern and control…”
Darryl: “Well, that because he is talking about the love of his life and the time that spend together… And it is always nice to talk about your love one…”
Kenny: “Are you feeling the same when talk about me?”
Darryl: “Of course and I am very proud to talk about you…”
Kenny: “Me too…”
Darryl: ‘Hey, you want to get something to eat?”
Kenny: “No… Still full… “
Darryl: “Then let go home and sleep early… Tomorrow need to go marketing for picnic stuff…”
Kenny: “OK…”

To be continue…

Love Is... (Part 94 - Robin 4)

The three of them just sat at the bench and Robin just let his emotion out… Darryl was touched by the love Robin has for Tommy… Not sure how long later before Robin finally stop and recompose himself and continue his story…

“You know moving to Thailand was really not what we wanted at all but all the negativities just make us want to run away to some place where nobody know us and we can finally be ourselves… But it is a tough decision for both of us… To everyone, it seems like we make it so easy but the struggle and friction between us is so great that we almost give up on each other… In fact, we did… That why I went ahead with my trip… We stop contacting each other for almost a month until one day, he called me and tells me how much he misses me and wanted to be with me… I thought he is asking me to leave everything and go back to him in Singapore but I was taken by surprise when he told me he is coming over to me instead…

At that particular moment, I feel not worthy for him. I am unsure about his decision and I told him not to give up everything for me…Perhaps I am feeling inferior about myself and insecure about everything… I am worry… And I mean really worry that what if things don’t work out and he blame me for everything… So I objected to his idea but he was persistence, so in the end he wins…

Within 3 days, he arrived in Bangkok… And our relationship blossom again… Things really didn’t go every well in the first few months due to language barrier… We have a hard time adapting to living together and we argue a lot… The arguments were so intense that we give up on each other for the second time… He went back to Singapore and I continue with my work in Bangkok…We didn’t spoke and keep in contact for almost 6 months. I thought we have both move on but I was wrong… I was miserable… I did go on a few dates with other guys but nothing was like with Tommy…

So I decided to call him again after 6 months, I hesitated at first but in the end I find the courage to do so… And I am glad I did… Apparently, he is feeling the same and that phone conversation change everything from then on…It was then that I told you I fall in love… And that is the reason why you will have the idea that I met him in Bangkok…”

Darryl: “At least now I get the picture…”
Robin: “Sorry that I keep it from you…”
Darryl: “Don’t apologize… I understand totally what you are going through… It never easy for us to be accepted by the general public… and not say about making such a decision to just leave behind everything and start afresh in a country where language is problem…”
Kenny: “Yup… We should be lucky to just have each other as support and not expect too much from others…”
Robin: “I totally agree… That what we started to realize the 3rd time around. We are too concern about how others look at us… We are too afraid of not being accepted by everyone that we lost ourselves in other people view on us… We tried and tried and tried to be accepted that we forget our love for each other…But when we decided to give it a shot the 3rd time, we made each other promise not to give up so easily and think about what we want for the future… And I guess we are very clear about the future….”
Kenny: “Well, 3rd time a charm for both of you…”
Robin: “Yes… It is… And i don’t think I will ever find someone like him… He is my everything… Everything a guy like me is looking for…”
Kenny: “Well, you just have to know that he will always be part of you… No matter how hard you tried, you will not forget him but you live on with him as part of your memory… Though people come and go in our life physically, they will always remain part of our lives…”
Darryl: “I totally agree… These past years are something you will treasure and remember forever… Sometime, it will just appear and make you smile… Sometime, it will make you cry… But whatever the situation is, you remembered…”
Robin: “I know and I miss having him around me…”
Kenny: “He is always around you… He is in your heart… And you know it…”

Darryl took out the necklace he was wearing and hold on to it tightly… Nothing was spoken and exchange anymore… They sat down and watched the sunset together in memory of Tommy…

Robin: “Do you mind going somewhere else with me before dinner?”
Darryl: “Not at all… We are all yours today…”
Robin: “Hahaha… Thanks”
Kenny: “Finally someone is laughing…. Al least we will not end the evening with a sad note”
Robin: “Well… I have the right to be sad right… I am his partner afterall…”
Kenny: “Hey, I never say anything about that but just wanted the evening to end happily…”
Darryl: “Ok ok… Let go to where you want to go and then have dinner ok… So where you want to go?”
Robin: “This place…” He handed Darryl a piece of paper with a route map…
Darryl: “Oh… I really very bad with such thing… Dear, I think you need to be the driver…”
Kenny: “No… You drive and I navigate…”
Darryl: “OK… So let go…”

Following the route lead them to a deserted house… It was kind of eerie even though it was only 715pm… But when they got the place, Robin told them that this is the place, he and Tommy actually make the decision of having a relationship…

Kenny: “Why here?”
Robin: “Remember I told you that we come out at the wrong timing and everybody were against us… Since then, we had been trying to find a place where we can actually be alone… And this is a place where chance upon one day while we were driving around… Though we never come back again after that day, it stills a place that I wanted to revisit.”
Darryl: “Well, it does feel a bit eerie…”
Robin: “It not that bad during daytime though… It actually quite a nice place...”
Darryl: “OK…”
Robin: “Hahaha… Someone seems scare…”
Darryl: “Not really… Just uncomfortable…”
Robin: “OK… Let get out of here ba… Thanks for bringing me here…”
Darryl: “You’re welcome…”
Kenny: “So let go for dinner now… I have made reservation at Sushi Tei in Takashimaya for 8pm… We should be right on time…”
Darryl: “Sushi Tei can make reservation?”
Kenny: “I have my way… Hahaha….”
Robin: “OK… Let go for dinner now…”

Robin tells more about his story before the move to Thailand and how they actually come out to the friends and family… It was very sad to know of the rejection and objection from everyone and how tough it is for the 2 of them to even find time to see each other and the stress of keeping the relationship low profile so nobody knows they are together… During the whole conversation, Robin has not once but numerous time mention how regret he is from coming out… It was the worst decision he ever made in his life, how he destroy everything he has worked for and needed to start afresh in a foreign country…

Listening to these made Darryl wonder is being accepted by other that important in life… Does it really matter that much???? Does it???

To be continue…

Love Is... (Part 93 - Robin 3)

Robin got on the car and off they head out to their unbelievable excursion of Singapore…

Kenny: “So anywhere you want go in particular?”
Robin: “Yup… There is actually a few place that I really miss and wanted to have a look after so many years…”
Darryl: “OK then… you give the direction and I will bring you there…”
Robin: “Hope it not too much hassle for both of you…”
Darryl: “Nah… Not at all, we are on leave anyway… Supposedly to be in France now but then we decided to push back till next year… So we are free to accompany you… Just hope you don’t find us a nuisance”
Robin: “I may eventually… but now I still need both of you as my driver and companion… hahaha”
Kenny: “Well said… And Mr Robin, may we have your first destination please…”
Robin: “Driver, please head to these places in order…”

Robin passed them a piece of paper… And the places include a residential address, a secondary school, a hotel and a park…

Kenny: “So we are going to this address first?”
Robin: “Yes… Need to visit someone…”
Kenny: “Mind telling us somemore?”
Robin: “I will let you have the details when we finish all the places…”
Darryl: “So secretive…”
Robin: “Yes it is… We are going to solve the mystery…”
Kenny: “OK this trip is getting interesting… I like…”
Darryl: “You like everything anyway…”
Kenny: “Well, I’m just easy going…”
Darryl: “Ya ya… So Rob, you want to grab something to eat first?”
Robin: “I’m ok… Just go to the first place…”
Darryl: “Yes sir…”

Upon reaching the destination, Robin requested Darryl and Kenny to stay in the car to wait for him… He will not take long just need to visit someone close… Both of them agreed and see nothing wrong about Robin… So they just waited and 45min passed by before they see Robin walking towards the car… Happy was being replaced by Sadness… But Robin still not talking to them about anything so they proceed to the other 3 places and with each one, Robin get more sad… Nothing much was being exchanged as Darryl and Kenny were confused what is going on… Darryl was very tempted to ask Robin about it but Kenny rejected the idea and decided that to give Robin some privacy as Robin did mentioned he will give them the details when the trip ends…

Finally they comes to the last destination, Sembawang Park… Darryl parked the car and all three of them took a slow walk around the place… They sat down at a bench and Robin started to let them in the details of today trip… Kenny headed to an ice cream seller to get some drinks and join them after that…

Darryl: “Robin, you doing ok? You look kind of pale…”
Robin: “I am doing ok… Just some of the places do bring back memories… I am glad I visited them though… Thanks for the company”
Darryl: “We didn’t do much actually… Just accompany you…”
Robin: “It more than enough already… Want to hear a story?”
Darryl: “Yup…” Kenny nodded in unison…

“Several years ago in this particular part, there was a young man cycling along the cycling track alone… Along the way, he saw family doing picnic, couples holding hands walking along the pavement. Everything was nice and peaceful then someone caught his eyes…. A young good looking gentleman cycling in opposite direction of him… Their eyes met for the very time… Unexpectedly, both of them looked back to check on each other again but nothing was exchanged but just a look of fondness in each other eye… A few months later, the first young man came back cycling again… But a strange feeling surrounded him… He could not lay a hand on what the feeling is until he saw him again… He was cycling towards him but this time round; his heart was beating very fast and almost exploding… The guy just gives him a smile and cycled on…

The very next day, he came back again determine to know this guy… But he was disappointed… It went on for almost a week until he finally appeared again… They were cycling on the same tracks, their eyes met and slowly they come to a stop… They started to chat and feeling started to blossom… By the end of the day, numbers were exchanged and they started to keep in touch…

The relationship got serious but however, was not being accepted most of their friends… But truly in love are both of them, they started to drift apart from their friends and slowly they are left alone… They started a life together secretly but was found out by their family members, it was chaotic… Family members objected their union and in fact force them to end it with threats of suicide from both side of the family… In the end, they give in to the pressure and broke up…

But their feeling for each other are so strong that lives with each other is totally dreadful and tough to go on… The break off only lasted for 3 days and they are back together again without anyone knowledge including friends… They started to lead a double life and quickly adapted to this new lives of their… Each night, they will meet at the field next to the school so that nobody will find them and once a while, they will stay in the hotel to be on their own… And this goes on for like forever until a job opportunity arises and both of them relocated to this new country and finally starting a life where they finally need not need to hide anymore…”

Darryl: “Is this you and Tommy?”
Robin: “Yup…”
Darryl: “But I thought you guys met in Bangkok?”
Robin: “Nope… We did not… This is the exact place I met him… When we decided to keep our relationship in the dark, we decided not to tell anybody about it… Lots of pressures were coming through from everywhere that is making us hard to breathe…”
Kenny: “So all the places you visited to today is…?”
Robin: “Yes… These are the places where we pull ourselves through at our lowest point but yet it’s sweet memory that I have with him…”
Kenny: “But the residential address…”
Robin: “Tommy’s parents…”
Darryl: “You went to visit them?”
Robin: “I just feel I should do it… Though I am scared but I just feel I should…”
Darryl: “And?”
Robin: “They are ok… I guess after so long… We sat down and chatted about Tommy for a while…”
Kenny: “So you ok?”
Robin: “Never been better… Just wish that they would have accepted me while Tommy is still around…”
Kenny: “Well I guess Tommy will be relieved to know that even it is only now... Better late than never…”
Robin: “You know… Things will be so much easier if we didn’t come out…”
Darryl: “Well, it part and parcel of it… You learn from everything you do… There bound to be high and low in everybody life… If without this low, would you imagine being so strong for the relationship… No doubt it’s tough but it’s worth it, is it?”
Robin: “Yes… he has given the best I can ever wanted in a relationship… and I miss him so much…” Tears flowed down his cheeks…
Darryl: “We miss him too… Just let it out… You will feel better…” Darryl give Robin a hug and let him cry…
Robin: “I miss him, Darryl… I really miss him…”’
Darryl: “I know… I know…”

I guess this is what true love is all about… You will never be able to forget someone and even ignore the fact that he is no longer around… You are just deceiving yourself if you do… We don’t forget, we live through it… There will always be a part of this person in your life that you will remember to… Good or bad, this person remains in your life especially someone that you have truly love with all your hearts and souls…

To be continue…

Love Is... (Part 92 - Robin 2)

That night was a sleepless night for Darryl again. He is really worried about Robin but more worried about the things that Robin has said during the phone conversation. The sudden change of personality is something that pushes Darryl to be more caution on the things that need to be say and the support he needs to give to Robin… He do not want Robin to succumb defeat to a dream he had but on the other hand, he really lost on what else he can do… He cannot be with Robin 24/7 a week 365 days a year… Robin will still be going back to Thailand after New Year Day… He is confused and lost… Kenny seems to sense that Darryl is not asleep and he gives him a hug…

Kenny: “You want to talk about it?”
Darryl: “Sorry… did I wake you up?”
Kenny: “I’m not sleeping…”
Darryl: “Sorry…”
Kenny: “Not your fault… Somehow it just weird that ever since I slept on this bed with you… I started to feel more and I know that at this moment, you are not sleeping but thinking of Robin… Somehow I can feel it… Though I may be tired but yet I myself can’t help it to worry as well as it is affecting my lover… So want to head out to the couch and grab a cup of hot tea…”
Darryl: “But it is 3am in the morning, you must be exhausted…”
Kenny: “Don’t worry… I’m fine… I go prepare the tea…”
Darryl: “No… Just let me be in your arms for a while…”
Kenny: “OK”
Darryl: “Dear, I just don’t know why I keep having a bad feeling about the phone conversation I had with Robin just now…”
Kenny: “What happen?”
Darryl: “He was really happy and said that he can’t wait to sleep so that he can talk to Tommy again in his dream…”
Kenny: “Well, maybe this is the reason he is really happy…”
Darryl: “But he also said this…”
Kenny: “What did he say?”
Darryl: “I can’t wait to tell Tommy how much I miss him and how happy to know that he is waiting for me and….”
Kenny: “What? Dear, please don’t pause like that… You are making me really worry now…Come on tells me what else he says…”

Kenny sits up and he look over to Darryl… Tears are already falling from his eyes… Darryl tried to compose himself before continuing….

Darryl: “He hopes the wait will not be long… As he hates to know, he is so near yet so far away from Tommy…”
Kenny: “OMG!!! Why didn’t you tell me about it just now?”
Darryl: “I was lost and scared…”
Kenny: “Ok… Ok… Shhhhhhh… I am here… So what did you tell him?”
Darryl: “I told him not to do anything silly else Tommy might be angry with him… But then he just laughs it off and said he sure know Tommy will be angry…”
Kenny: “Anything else he says?”
Darryl: “He said he will take care of himself and ask me don’t worry… He knows what he is doing…and stops treating him like he is needy of our support…”
Kenny: “Did he say that? Are you sure Robin said that? But Robin… He won’t…”
Darryl: “I really wanted to go to the hotel just now but after he said this… I…”
Kenny: “I know… Well, we just have to be there and see how it goes… I really don’t know what he is thinking or even contemplating now but I think he will not do anything silly…”
Darryl: “What make you so sure?”
Kenny: “I am not but I am thinking positively…Because I don’t want to think that he is going to do anything silly… Nope I am not going to think about it…”
Darryl: “Me too but I…”
Kenny: “I know… It will be tough on you but we need to be strong together so that he can help him… We have to help him… We just have to take thing a step at a time… Why not we think of where we are going for dinner?”
Darryl: “Erm….”
Kenny: “Shall we do Jap tomorrow? It has been a while since we ate that…”
Darryl: “OK… That’s a fast change…”
Kenny: “Well, just have to do it…”
Darryl: “OK…”
Kenny: “OK set… Tomorrow morning I will make reservation and then call Robin… OK now let’s get some sleep…”
Darryl: “OK…”

Both of them lied back down on the bed but both of them are pretty sure the other party is not sleeping at all... Kenny turned over to hug Darryl from behind and whispered…

“Don’t worry too much… I’m here…Everything will be fine…”

The hug at this time really means so much to Darryl… He started to think what his life will be if Kenny is not here with him… Will it be the same? Will he ever be able to find someone who understand him so well and give the comfort to him everytime he needed them… He is the most perfect lover in Darryl’s eyes… He hopes that the love they have will be last forever because he can never imagine his life without Kenny… And with the thoughts and silence, Darryl drifted into sleep…

The next morning, Darryl was woken up by a call from Robin… Robin wanted to head to some places and wonder whether both of them are free… Darryl told Robin that they will be on leave till 2 Jan so it should be ok… but Kenny is still in bed… They go ahead and fix the time to meet up anyway…

After the phone call, Darryl woke Kenny up and tells him about the plan… Darryl then heads to the bathroom to shower and Kenny joins him shortly after… Soon both of them are on the road towards the hotel… Darryl asked Kenny to call Robin to inform him that they are on the way toward him and see him at the lobby in 15 minutes

Kenny: “He does sound OK to me, Dear…”
Darryl: “Yup, he does and the bubbly persona is still there… so I guess he is really happy…”
Kenny: “Yup… Guess we worry for nothing… Hahaha”
Darryl: “Hopefully so…”
Kenny: “Did he mention anywhere he want to go particularly…”
Darryl: “Not really… he just mentioned he need to visit some places so I just agree to go with him…”
Kenny: “Ya… I know… Never consult me again and just make the decision…”
Darryl: “Oops”
Kenny: “See I know I not important… I just ask to tag along only…”
Darryl: “You are always important to me and you know it… I cannot imagine how my life will turn out now if you were not in it… And I can’t never possibly imagine my life without you sitting next to me…”
Kenny: “Don’t believe you…”
Darryl: “I swear with my life… I mean everything I have just said…”
Kenny: “Still don’t believe…Plus your life means nothing to me”
Darryl: “Fine… Hold on to the steering wheel…”

Kenny obliged without thinking and Darryl loosen the seat belts..

Darryl: “I shall jump off the car then…” Darryl pretend to open the door…
Kenny: “Hey…” Kenny grab hold of him and place Darryl hand back onto the steering wheel…
Darryl: “What?”
Kenny: “I believe you la… So drama… Anyway you’re not going to jump... Pretend only…”
Darryl: “Fine… I will jump… You wish is my command…”
Kenny: “Stop it lar… You and your nonsense… I don’t want to be a murderer hor…”
Darryl: “But my life means nothing to you what…”
Kenny: “You mean everything to me… Can?”
Darryl: “Wah… so insincere one…”
Kenny: “So you want or not… Don’t want, it’s ok…”
Darryl: “Want… Anything also wants as long as it is with you…”
Kenny: “Nonsense…” Both of them laughed

Robin was already at the Hotel entrance waiting for them when they approached…

To be continue…

Love Is... (Part 91 - The Day After)

Good times really flied by fast… Darryl and Kenny woke up at near 11am and realized the house is still in a big mess… Darryl suggested that they clean up the house first before waking Robin up for lunch… Kenny agreed and the cleaning process begins… Darryl will clean up the kitchen and dining area while Kenny in charge of the living room… Never did they expect cleaning to be such a task after a party… And most time, they really wonder how they can mess up the place without realizing it… Maybe they are kind of high from all the drinking…

After they done with the cleaning, Darryl went to wake Robin up for lunch… It was already like 2pm in the afternoon when they head out to Marina Square for lunch…

Though it was Christmas day, the shopping mall is kind of quiet to begin with…They have no problem at all finding food at the restaurant which serves Christmas Menu instead of the normal menu… Halfway through the lunch, Robin said something that shock Darryl and Kenny…

Robin: “I dreamed of Tommy last night and he says he is waiting for me there… So I guess my life is coming to an end soon…”
Darryl: “Rubbish… Nobody can predict death… It’s just a dream…”
Kenny: “I agree… It could be just because you still missing him… That why you dreamed of him… You should think about death just because of a dream… I mean look at you… You look so healthy and fresh…”
Robin: “But I felt so real… I have never dreamt of him before. This is the first time I actually dream of him and he is telling me, he is waiting for me… Isn’t this a sign?”
Darryl: “No… How can that be a sign…? Tommy loves you too much to tell you that you are dying… He wants you to live longer and enjoy your life to the fullest…”
Kenny: “Yup… It could mean the reverse as well… When you think that he is saying that you are dying… He could be meaning that you still have a long way to go but he will wait for you no matter what…”
Robin: “I just have this feeling about my days are numbered…”
Darryl: “Nonsense… You are not making any sense at all… Like Kenny say, you are just missing him so much so when you dream of him, it just appear real to you…”
Robin: “But I am sure there is a meaning behind the dream or maybe an explanation…”
Darryl: “The explanation or meaning is Tommy want you to be happy and carefree… That why he appears in your dream to tell you not to worry… He is doing fine and he is waiting for you… I am sure he doesn’t appear in your dream to tell you that your days are numbered…”
Robin: “You think so?”
Darryl: “Yes… Yes… I think that exactly what he is trying to tell you… Just take your time…”
Robin: “I guess you two do make sense… Hmmm, OK! Let me go to the bathroom and then we go and do some shopping…”
Kenny: “What a great idea…I will call for the bill while waiting for you…”
Robin: “OK…”

Robin stood up and head to the toilet… Darryl and Kenny turned to look at each other puzzled…

Kenny: “What the hell was that? Just take your time?!”
Darryl: “What? I really don’t know how that sentence comes out of my mouth…”
Kenny: “You sounded like he is going shopping for his death… Just take your time to choose which day…”
Darryl: “Oops… Do I sound like that?”
Kenny: “Yes… Dear, I think you really need to brush up a little more on your skill…”
Darryl: “I know… But I was just so worry when he suddenly brings up this topic…”
Kenny: “I know… I am caught by surprise too… But I think we need to really get him off the mind about this because I am worry he may…”
Darryl: “He may what??”
Kenny: “Remember your dream of the policeman coming over to our place…”
Darryl: “NO WAY! He will not do that…Please don’t worry me anymore…”
Kenny: “I am not… That why we need to get this dream off his mind…”
Darryl: “OK, Darryl… Think… Think... what can be done?”
Kenny: “Well… Let just go with the flow and nobody panic about this anymore… For a start, let just pretend that what he say is meant to be a joke…”
Darryl: “OK OK… I can do that… let’s call for the bill…”
Kenny: “Yup…”

So they got the bill and then heading to Suntec City for shopping… Darryl and Kenny were kind of surprise on the mood change Robin has since lunch… Maybe shopping does make one person happy… He was in such happy mood that he just keep buying and buying and within an hour, he could have easily spent more than $500 or more… But yet Darryl and Kenny are happy that he is in such a good mood, at least he will not think of the dream or so they thought…

As the day goes by, Darryl start to feel uneasy on Robin changes of mood and his hyper activeness… Not that there is anything wrong with it but it more on the fact that Kenny actually bring up his dream about Robin committing suicide and he is really worry that it will happen… Looking at Robin behavior, he just knows that something is not right… The person standing in front of him is not the Robin that he knew… It like an act… An act to take him off guard…

On their way back after sending Robin back to the hotel, Darryl can’t help it but bring up the topic again….

Darryl: “Dear, do you feel something amiss with Robin throughout the whole day?”
Kenny: “I do know that he is very happy and having a good time buying and shopping…”
Darryl: “I’m starting to feel uneasy about the whole situation…”
Kenny: “You worry it will come true…”
Darryl: “Haiz… I also don’t know how to put it… It just feel to me Robin is putting up a happy act just to take us off guard that he is contemplating on something...”
Kenny: “You are saying he is pretending to be happy and stuff just so that we will think that he will not do anything silly but actual fact, he is going to do something…”
Darryl: “Yup…”
Kenny: “What make you think so?”
Darryl: “Because the Robin that I know will never react in the way he is reacting today… Everything he does today is so unfamiliar to me and it just seems like he has changed to another person…”
Kenny: “Maybe he really do change after what we told him about Tommy wanted him to enjoy his life”
Darryl: “I don’t know about that but I seriously hoping what you say now is true…”
Kenny: “Dear, just don’t worry so much… It’s just a dream and I am sure everything will be fine… Anyway we have make plan for dinner tomorrow so I am sure everything will be alright...OK? Just relax…” Darryl nodded

Once home, he decided to give Robin a call to check on him and Robin is in his happy mood throughout the whole conversation. He keeps telling Darryl how happy he was today and hopefully tomorrow will be better… Darryl spoke to him a bit more before hanging up…

To be continue….