To You,
It's nice seeing you again after such a long period of time... But i guess u never change a single bit... You are still the same old person who never say goodbye when you leave...Tonight you did the same... Just leave again... I seems to be just s substitute in your life due to loneliness... Nothing means more than your lover... When you are with him, i became a nobody to you again... Not even a friend... Again i was being ignored...
I was worry about you that i actually follow you out of the club to ensure you are safe... Then i saw that you are just going to look for your lover... I just plain stupid to care and worry for you... For all you know, i just a nobody... In fact, i am hurt that i don't even deserve a goodbye from you...
Seeing you tonight does make me feel much better... Not because of seeing you, but more that i realise you are just somebody that people cannot really put their trust on you... Seriously, i was really pissed off by your actions again and again... And i am not happy...
What you take me as? Somebody when u in brunei then yo here yo there because u just bored... Or a friend that can talk... I no longer sure who are you anymore... I no longer sure what you say is true... All the things you have done and said has put question marks on me... Frankly speaking, i am very disappointed with you... very disappointed...
Seriously i am thinking whether having you as a business partner is the right choice anymore... I need to be able to trust you... But then these few days make me realised that i can't trust you...
I thought that i'm your friend but guess i was wrong....I'm more like a toy to you... Play with me when you are bored but once occupy, you will throw me aside.... Cos you realise that there is no use for the toy till the time you are bored again...
All i want is some respect from you as a human being but i guess you will never respect people beside your lover...
Actions speak louder than words... Your action has really showed it to me and I finally see the true you... The one that cannot be trusted. The one that i no longer fixating on, the one that treat friend as toy... The one that never show respect to others...
You told me that you want to be mature but then again i can tell you look can be change but not mentality... People show maturity not from the look but from the mentality and also their personality... You are just not there yet...
I'm sorry but i guess i need time to think about the business partner thing and also the so called friendship we have...
Good Luck and take care
Love, Gerald
4 comments:
Hmm...who is the person u r mentioning in the blog?? guess i will never know until u finish the story...
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I enjoy reading your blog really. So much love and feelings. I just got out of a relationship too. It kinda sucks when the people that you thought will never hurt you disappoint you again and again. But the thing is, even though he's hurting me, I still keep going back to him. Pathetic isn't it? After a break up do we really stop loving that person? Is that possible to love someone and then the next moment we don't love them anymore? I think no. We still continue to love them. It's just that we need to get used to the fact that they won't be around anymore. Anyway I wish you well
Vicky
Vicky,
Thanks for the words...
I do agree that even when you are out of love, you have loved and that what really matter... No one will be able to let go of any relationship whether it end in good or bad note... It part of who you are now... You learn and you grow from it... You don't forget, you just live pass it... But no matter how you live your life.. This past relationship will never go away because you have love...
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