Today is 1st December 2008 and it’s World Aids Day. Looking back, it had been 20 years since it’s first started in 1988.
Just feel like again writing an open to him… Someone that is very close to my heart that was taken from me due to AIDS…
To You,
It has been more than 3 years since you left. I have changed and move on quite nicely I guess but then nothing means more to me than seeing you healthy again. During these 3 years, I always wonder what life will be like if you are still around.
Will I be happier? Life without you is like piano without a pianist. Nice layout but silent in the surrounding. Even though it been so long, I never once stop thinking about you. Never once but I know nothing can be change and I just have to get used to you not being around me anymore
To be frank, I was shocked that things happen so fast since you break the new to me about this. But seeing you giving up your life thinking that it the end of the world and let it just deteriorate hurt every one who cared for you.
I hated you for giving up so easily. I hated you for not even tried to do something about it. But sit around and waiting for the worst to happen. If you have see the love in us, it should motivate you and push you harder to be better but then you just ask us not to love you anymore. How is that possible? How do you seriously expect us not to love you? How can you even say that?
Seeing you giving up is worst than you breaking the news to us. Seeing you rejecting us is more hurtful than the news. Seeing you getting weaker by the day hurt us more than anything else. Why are you doing this? Why are you giving up?
Nobody is rejecting you. Nobody is looking down at you… Nobody is… No matter how many time I repeat, you just ignoring me… What happen to you? What happen to the person that I know?
But then now no matter what I say now. You will never know and understand the pain and hurt I go through from losing you.
Life is never the same anymore… You are no longer here with me. All I have now is the sweet memory that both of us share in our life, the memory of you laughing, the love we both shared…
This wound that you have left me will take forever to heal…. Eventhough I know you are more carefree now but I will be lying to say that I do not wish that you are still around sharing every moment of my life with me. There is so many things I wanted to say to you and so many things I wish you are here to share with me.
But nothing can be change now… Nothing…
Just feel like again writing an open to him… Someone that is very close to my heart that was taken from me due to AIDS…
To You,
It has been more than 3 years since you left. I have changed and move on quite nicely I guess but then nothing means more to me than seeing you healthy again. During these 3 years, I always wonder what life will be like if you are still around.
Will I be happier? Life without you is like piano without a pianist. Nice layout but silent in the surrounding. Even though it been so long, I never once stop thinking about you. Never once but I know nothing can be change and I just have to get used to you not being around me anymore
To be frank, I was shocked that things happen so fast since you break the new to me about this. But seeing you giving up your life thinking that it the end of the world and let it just deteriorate hurt every one who cared for you.
I hated you for giving up so easily. I hated you for not even tried to do something about it. But sit around and waiting for the worst to happen. If you have see the love in us, it should motivate you and push you harder to be better but then you just ask us not to love you anymore. How is that possible? How do you seriously expect us not to love you? How can you even say that?
Seeing you giving up is worst than you breaking the news to us. Seeing you rejecting us is more hurtful than the news. Seeing you getting weaker by the day hurt us more than anything else. Why are you doing this? Why are you giving up?
Nobody is rejecting you. Nobody is looking down at you… Nobody is… No matter how many time I repeat, you just ignoring me… What happen to you? What happen to the person that I know?
But then now no matter what I say now. You will never know and understand the pain and hurt I go through from losing you.
Life is never the same anymore… You are no longer here with me. All I have now is the sweet memory that both of us share in our life, the memory of you laughing, the love we both shared…
This wound that you have left me will take forever to heal…. Eventhough I know you are more carefree now but I will be lying to say that I do not wish that you are still around sharing every moment of my life with me. There is so many things I wanted to say to you and so many things I wish you are here to share with me.
But nothing can be change now… Nothing…
Love you forever,
Gerald
1 comments:
I hope your soul will heal as time goes by, Since he did not get to live life well,you have to live for him, May you friend find peace... :)
Post a Comment