Door was shut close behind Darryl… He kneeled down and cried over the answer that Kenny had given “I don’t know how to answer you…” the moment the door closed shut…
So does that mean he is enjoying himself and he wanted more with Sam? What is going to happen to this relationship now? Will this so called mistake that they made come back and haunt them again in the future? Darryl was sad… Tears just keep flowing down off his eyes uncontrollably… There are too many thought in his mind now…
He cried and cried for so long until the tears finally stopped… He walked out of the bedroom and saw Kenny sitting over at the couch… Kenny ran up to Darryl and give him a tight hug…
Kenny: “I am sorry… I am sorry…”
Darryl: “What is there to be sorry about? You enjoy yourself last night so….”
Kenny: “No I did not…. I was just dumbfounded on what to say… But seeing you like that and hearing you cry... Its hurt me more than you can imagine… It's a wrong move for both of us last night but it has already been done… I just want to move on from what we have done…”
Darryl: “I don’t know at this moment… I feel very wrong in what I have done… I can easily blame it on the alcohol but then I know it not about the alcohol… It more like both of us wanted it to happen... And when it happen, none of us actually resist it and we just carry on... The hugging, kissing and everything… We let it happen”
Kenny: “What are you saying?”
Darryl: “I just think that maybe we should take a break…”
Kenny: “Why?”
Darryl: “I feel something amiss since last night... I cannot deny I may enjoy last night as well but the moment I woke up, it hit me badly for the thing I have done… But for you, it seems that you wanted more… When I saw you making out with Sam, it seems to me that the commitment that we have may be down the drain….”
Kenny: “What you mean by that?”
Darryl: “I think we should take a break…”
Kenny: “Where you want to go? We can plan to go overseas…”
Darryl: “Not overseas… A break from the relationship…”
Kenny: “You want to break off?”
Darryl: “I don’t know… I just want to be sure that this is what we both wanted… I can see that this commitment is not what you really want from how you react with Sam this morning… You want to have fun… You wanted more… But if this relationship is tying you down… Then it is not going to be right for both of us… We need this break to rethink whether this relationship is what both of us need”
Kenny: “Why do you keep saying all these?”
Darryl: “Because I don’t want this commitment to become a burden to both of us…”
Kenny: “So what difference does it make now?” It all because of last night and maybe it because I am enjoying more than you then you think that this relationship is not for us…”
Darryl: “No… It not that… Don’t you think we need some time to reconsider whether we want this to be monogamous or open or maybe we should just go back to the life we are before all this happen?”
Kenny: “Why do you want to go back? You are not happy with me? Why do what happen last night affect you so much? We both did it… And its a mistake that we did… yes we may have enjoy ourselves but does it really need a break to reanalyse our love for each other? I already said that it’s a one time thing and we will not make the same mistake again… We need to move forward now instead of moving backward… It is something we cannot change anymore, right? We have done it… So what can we do now? Does taking the break really going to work things out… Does the break really going to make thing better for us… Does taking the break going to undo what we have already done?”
Darryl: “No… No… No… and No…”
Kenny: “Then what is wrong with you?”
Darryl: “I…. I… I…”
Kenny: “I what… You are always running away from the problem… Time and time again, you keep mentioning that you want to rethink and rethink and rethink… But there is nothing wrong with us… It just a ONS which we both engaged in… That all… Just forget about it…”
Darryl: “It’s not that simple, ok”
Kenny: “Then what?”
Darryl: “Because I think Sam love you…”
Kenny: “But I don’t love him so who the hell I care he love me or who else love you… I only know I LOVE U… And with you constantly calling for the break and rethinking is making me feel I am not good enough for you… Maybe I am really not good enough for you… Frankly speaking, the whole incident with Sam is all about me enjoying more… The whole conversation is about me unable to answer you… I don’t even have the chance to give you an answer and you just walked away… Have you thought of how I feel? I AM NOT BLOODY GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU!!!!! Yes that how I feel… Have you thought of me when you decided to ask for a break? Is this what I want? Is this what I really needed?”
Darryl: “I… I… I…”
Kenny: “I what???”
Darryl: “I think you should calm yourself down…”
Kenny: “How to? My boyfriend is asking to break off with me now…”
Darryl: “I’m not breaking off with you… I’m just saying that we need some time to think how we want this relationship to go?”
Kenny: “What again?”
Darryl: “I just need to know whether we are going to be monogamous or open.”
Kenny: “Are you ok with open relationship?”
Darryl: “I don’t know…”
Kenny: “Then why open?”
Darryl: “I don’t know…”
Kenny: “Tell you what, when you know then you let me know… I know what I want but I will respect whatever decision you made… I think better leave you alone now since you got so much to think… and I am the one who know what I really wanted… I will not call you until you call me… That should be more than I can do…”
Darryl: “I… I… I…”
Kenny: “You don’t need to say anything anymore… When you are sure then you call me… I will wait… I have already waited for so long so what such a big deal to wait again right… I better get going already…”
Kenny turned and walked out of the house without looking back and Darryl did not stop him this time...
To be continue…
So does that mean he is enjoying himself and he wanted more with Sam? What is going to happen to this relationship now? Will this so called mistake that they made come back and haunt them again in the future? Darryl was sad… Tears just keep flowing down off his eyes uncontrollably… There are too many thought in his mind now…
He cried and cried for so long until the tears finally stopped… He walked out of the bedroom and saw Kenny sitting over at the couch… Kenny ran up to Darryl and give him a tight hug…
Kenny: “I am sorry… I am sorry…”
Darryl: “What is there to be sorry about? You enjoy yourself last night so….”
Kenny: “No I did not…. I was just dumbfounded on what to say… But seeing you like that and hearing you cry... Its hurt me more than you can imagine… It's a wrong move for both of us last night but it has already been done… I just want to move on from what we have done…”
Darryl: “I don’t know at this moment… I feel very wrong in what I have done… I can easily blame it on the alcohol but then I know it not about the alcohol… It more like both of us wanted it to happen... And when it happen, none of us actually resist it and we just carry on... The hugging, kissing and everything… We let it happen”
Kenny: “What are you saying?”
Darryl: “I just think that maybe we should take a break…”
Kenny: “Why?”
Darryl: “I feel something amiss since last night... I cannot deny I may enjoy last night as well but the moment I woke up, it hit me badly for the thing I have done… But for you, it seems that you wanted more… When I saw you making out with Sam, it seems to me that the commitment that we have may be down the drain….”
Kenny: “What you mean by that?”
Darryl: “I think we should take a break…”
Kenny: “Where you want to go? We can plan to go overseas…”
Darryl: “Not overseas… A break from the relationship…”
Kenny: “You want to break off?”
Darryl: “I don’t know… I just want to be sure that this is what we both wanted… I can see that this commitment is not what you really want from how you react with Sam this morning… You want to have fun… You wanted more… But if this relationship is tying you down… Then it is not going to be right for both of us… We need this break to rethink whether this relationship is what both of us need”
Kenny: “Why do you keep saying all these?”
Darryl: “Because I don’t want this commitment to become a burden to both of us…”
Kenny: “So what difference does it make now?” It all because of last night and maybe it because I am enjoying more than you then you think that this relationship is not for us…”
Darryl: “No… It not that… Don’t you think we need some time to reconsider whether we want this to be monogamous or open or maybe we should just go back to the life we are before all this happen?”
Kenny: “Why do you want to go back? You are not happy with me? Why do what happen last night affect you so much? We both did it… And its a mistake that we did… yes we may have enjoy ourselves but does it really need a break to reanalyse our love for each other? I already said that it’s a one time thing and we will not make the same mistake again… We need to move forward now instead of moving backward… It is something we cannot change anymore, right? We have done it… So what can we do now? Does taking the break really going to work things out… Does the break really going to make thing better for us… Does taking the break going to undo what we have already done?”
Darryl: “No… No… No… and No…”
Kenny: “Then what is wrong with you?”
Darryl: “I…. I… I…”
Kenny: “I what… You are always running away from the problem… Time and time again, you keep mentioning that you want to rethink and rethink and rethink… But there is nothing wrong with us… It just a ONS which we both engaged in… That all… Just forget about it…”
Darryl: “It’s not that simple, ok”
Kenny: “Then what?”
Darryl: “Because I think Sam love you…”
Kenny: “But I don’t love him so who the hell I care he love me or who else love you… I only know I LOVE U… And with you constantly calling for the break and rethinking is making me feel I am not good enough for you… Maybe I am really not good enough for you… Frankly speaking, the whole incident with Sam is all about me enjoying more… The whole conversation is about me unable to answer you… I don’t even have the chance to give you an answer and you just walked away… Have you thought of how I feel? I AM NOT BLOODY GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU!!!!! Yes that how I feel… Have you thought of me when you decided to ask for a break? Is this what I want? Is this what I really needed?”
Darryl: “I… I… I…”
Kenny: “I what???”
Darryl: “I think you should calm yourself down…”
Kenny: “How to? My boyfriend is asking to break off with me now…”
Darryl: “I’m not breaking off with you… I’m just saying that we need some time to think how we want this relationship to go?”
Kenny: “What again?”
Darryl: “I just need to know whether we are going to be monogamous or open.”
Kenny: “Are you ok with open relationship?”
Darryl: “I don’t know…”
Kenny: “Then why open?”
Darryl: “I don’t know…”
Kenny: “Tell you what, when you know then you let me know… I know what I want but I will respect whatever decision you made… I think better leave you alone now since you got so much to think… and I am the one who know what I really wanted… I will not call you until you call me… That should be more than I can do…”
Darryl: “I… I… I…”
Kenny: “You don’t need to say anything anymore… When you are sure then you call me… I will wait… I have already waited for so long so what such a big deal to wait again right… I better get going already…”
Kenny turned and walked out of the house without looking back and Darryl did not stop him this time...
To be continue…
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