It was a dark and cold here… In the darkness, there is a stream of light leading to a warmer place… As Darryl walk toward the light, it gets warmer and warmer…
All the sudden, a bright light shone onto Darryl… It’s blinding him… He uses his hand to cover his eyes…
“Boy, why are you here?” a familiar voice said… The voice is so warm and heartfelt… He slowly removes his hand…
“Grandma!” Darryl shouted and tried to hug her… But no matter how he tried… He can’t seems to touch her… “Grandma! Why can’t I?”
Grandma: “Boy, we are in different world now… You know it right…”
Darryl: “No, you are standing in front of me… What you mean we are in different world?”
Grandma: “Boy, why do you do such silly thing?”
Darryl: “Grandma, I cannot live without you… It’s too much pain for me to go through… I feel so bad and guilty everyday…I made a terrible mistake for you”
Grandma: “You did nothing wrong for me… You did the right thing… I will still be suffering if you didn’t make the decision… I want to thank you for doing that for me…”
Darryl: “No… I did it wrong… I don’t you to go… I miss you” Darryl cried…
Grandma: “It always hard to say goodbye… But when time is up, we just have to… We cannot avoid it… Its life we are talking about… It’s a cycle… How long more do you think I will be around?”
Darryl: “As long as you can… I am so helpless without you… I am so lonely without you…”
Grandma: “You are wrong… Now you are leaving lots of other people sad… Did you realise it when you commit suicide?”
Darryl: “No… I just want to die… I feel so lonely without… I just want to be with you”
Grandma: “Silly boy, you are never alone… You have Kenny, Robin, Mum, Dad, Sisters and many more… You know how sad they will be now if they never get to see you again.”
Darryl: “But…. I just want to be with you…”
Grandma: “Boy, you don’t belong here… Go back… Go back and live your life…”
Darryl: “No… I want to stay here with you… I want to be with you…”
Grandma: “You don’t belong here… Go back… Go back before it too late…”
Darryl: “Grandma, don’t go… don’t go… Don’t leave me again… Grandma! Grandma!”
Grandma started to drift further and further… Darryl cannot make out what she is saying anymore… A strong force pull Darryl away from the light and back into the darkness…
Beep… Beep… Beep…
As Darryl gained consciousness, he noticed oxygen mask on his face causing some pain. The next thing I knew, I heard someone’s voice saying,
“We got him back… All right, wheel him back to the ICU. Inform his family members.”
He drifted off to sleep.
When Darryl gained consciousness, he found himself on the hospital bed of a private room, hooking up to a dripping machine. He looked up & saw Kenny holding on to his hand…
Kenny: “You ok?”
Darryl: “Look like I didn’t succeed…”
Kenny: “Why are you doing this?”
Darryl: “The pain of losing her is too much…”
Kenny: “Then what about me and everybody else? We mean nothing to you is it? You can just leave me here like that? I almost lost you and the past 2 days waiting for you to open your eyes is totally unbearable… I though I losing you when I holding you in my arms feeling your cold body… I… I… I…” Kenny started crying…
Darryl: “I’m sorry…”
Kenny: “How can you be so selfish? You are not the only one who miss Grandma… I miss her too… She is like my own… All the time, we spend together with her and everything… I missed her too…”
Darryl: “I know…”
Kenny: “Then are you doing this? Why?”
Darryl: “I… I… I…”
Kenny: “You know I don’t even dare to tell your parents about it… I don’t know how to tell them about you… I don’t know how to tell them I didn’t take good care of you… I failed my responsibility as a partner… I…”
Darryl: “No you didn’t… I just didn’t think in my right mind… Sorry…”
Darryl wanted so much to give Kenny hug and console him but yet he is constraint with all the machine and needles… All he could say is Sorry… Looking at Kenny, Darryl feels guilty toward him… He saw Kenny tears flowing down his cheeks, each tear weight so heavily dripping in his heart…
“Grandma is right… Just Kenny, he already feels so indebted with his actions… What about other people in my life… I feel so confused and sad… What is happening to me? What is wrong with me?” Darryl thought…
Darryl: “Dear… I’m sorry…”
Kenny: “Don’t ever do this again… I cannot handle you leaving me… The thought of you not being around me… Seeing you lying there motionlessly… I am so helpless… I do not know what to do… I am so scared…”
Darryl: “I’m really sorry…”
Kenny: “Don’t you ever ever do it again…” Darryl nodded…
Darryl: “I’m really sorry… Don’t cry… I’m sorry”
Kenny: “Promise me… Don’t leave me this way…”
Darryl: “Hmmm…” Kenny calm himself down a bit…
Kenny: “You hungry?”
Darryl: “A bit…”
Kenny: “I go get some food for you…”
Darryl: “OK…” Kenny give Darryl a kiss in the lip and left to get some food…
An even more frightening thought conquer Darryl… He started to slump deeper into this territory… A territory known as depression…
To be continue…
All the sudden, a bright light shone onto Darryl… It’s blinding him… He uses his hand to cover his eyes…
“Boy, why are you here?” a familiar voice said… The voice is so warm and heartfelt… He slowly removes his hand…
“Grandma!” Darryl shouted and tried to hug her… But no matter how he tried… He can’t seems to touch her… “Grandma! Why can’t I?”
Grandma: “Boy, we are in different world now… You know it right…”
Darryl: “No, you are standing in front of me… What you mean we are in different world?”
Grandma: “Boy, why do you do such silly thing?”
Darryl: “Grandma, I cannot live without you… It’s too much pain for me to go through… I feel so bad and guilty everyday…I made a terrible mistake for you”
Grandma: “You did nothing wrong for me… You did the right thing… I will still be suffering if you didn’t make the decision… I want to thank you for doing that for me…”
Darryl: “No… I did it wrong… I don’t you to go… I miss you” Darryl cried…
Grandma: “It always hard to say goodbye… But when time is up, we just have to… We cannot avoid it… Its life we are talking about… It’s a cycle… How long more do you think I will be around?”
Darryl: “As long as you can… I am so helpless without you… I am so lonely without you…”
Grandma: “You are wrong… Now you are leaving lots of other people sad… Did you realise it when you commit suicide?”
Darryl: “No… I just want to die… I feel so lonely without… I just want to be with you”
Grandma: “Silly boy, you are never alone… You have Kenny, Robin, Mum, Dad, Sisters and many more… You know how sad they will be now if they never get to see you again.”
Darryl: “But…. I just want to be with you…”
Grandma: “Boy, you don’t belong here… Go back… Go back and live your life…”
Darryl: “No… I want to stay here with you… I want to be with you…”
Grandma: “You don’t belong here… Go back… Go back before it too late…”
Darryl: “Grandma, don’t go… don’t go… Don’t leave me again… Grandma! Grandma!”
Grandma started to drift further and further… Darryl cannot make out what she is saying anymore… A strong force pull Darryl away from the light and back into the darkness…
Beep… Beep… Beep…
As Darryl gained consciousness, he noticed oxygen mask on his face causing some pain. The next thing I knew, I heard someone’s voice saying,
“We got him back… All right, wheel him back to the ICU. Inform his family members.”
He drifted off to sleep.
When Darryl gained consciousness, he found himself on the hospital bed of a private room, hooking up to a dripping machine. He looked up & saw Kenny holding on to his hand…
Kenny: “You ok?”
Darryl: “Look like I didn’t succeed…”
Kenny: “Why are you doing this?”
Darryl: “The pain of losing her is too much…”
Kenny: “Then what about me and everybody else? We mean nothing to you is it? You can just leave me here like that? I almost lost you and the past 2 days waiting for you to open your eyes is totally unbearable… I though I losing you when I holding you in my arms feeling your cold body… I… I… I…” Kenny started crying…
Darryl: “I’m sorry…”
Kenny: “How can you be so selfish? You are not the only one who miss Grandma… I miss her too… She is like my own… All the time, we spend together with her and everything… I missed her too…”
Darryl: “I know…”
Kenny: “Then are you doing this? Why?”
Darryl: “I… I… I…”
Kenny: “You know I don’t even dare to tell your parents about it… I don’t know how to tell them about you… I don’t know how to tell them I didn’t take good care of you… I failed my responsibility as a partner… I…”
Darryl: “No you didn’t… I just didn’t think in my right mind… Sorry…”
Darryl wanted so much to give Kenny hug and console him but yet he is constraint with all the machine and needles… All he could say is Sorry… Looking at Kenny, Darryl feels guilty toward him… He saw Kenny tears flowing down his cheeks, each tear weight so heavily dripping in his heart…
“Grandma is right… Just Kenny, he already feels so indebted with his actions… What about other people in my life… I feel so confused and sad… What is happening to me? What is wrong with me?” Darryl thought…
Darryl: “Dear… I’m sorry…”
Kenny: “Don’t ever do this again… I cannot handle you leaving me… The thought of you not being around me… Seeing you lying there motionlessly… I am so helpless… I do not know what to do… I am so scared…”
Darryl: “I’m really sorry…”
Kenny: “Don’t you ever ever do it again…” Darryl nodded…
Darryl: “I’m really sorry… Don’t cry… I’m sorry”
Kenny: “Promise me… Don’t leave me this way…”
Darryl: “Hmmm…” Kenny calm himself down a bit…
Kenny: “You hungry?”
Darryl: “A bit…”
Kenny: “I go get some food for you…”
Darryl: “OK…” Kenny give Darryl a kiss in the lip and left to get some food…
An even more frightening thought conquer Darryl… He started to slump deeper into this territory… A territory known as depression…
To be continue…
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